My dearest Baby G, yesterday your momma had a rough night. One of my friends passed away. i still can't believe it. she was young and so full of life. The most genuine person i've ever met! I had just seen her a day before. I hugged her. I asked her how she was and she said she was good. she asked me about you and before i left she looked at me and gave me the most peaceful smile i've ever seen on her. i keep seeing her face when i close my eyes. i keep seeing that smile and all i can think (as weird as it sounds) is that she was ready to go. Her smile was different than any other day. i cried myself to sleep and i woke up with tears in my eyes. I cried driving to work and i've been crying on a off for the past few hours. it seems unreal.Want to know something. Yesterday after i found out, i went to my room and I cried while your dad stayed with you in the living room. i could hear you and your baby talk. i could hear your laugh. when I came outside your dad went over to me and had you in his arms. And while i was crying you reached out and touched my face and the tears running down my cheeks with your little hand. And amidst the sadness i felt you managed to make me smile. thank you! Momma loves you with ALL her heart!
R.I.P. Damarita.... this isn't goodbye but rather see you later.
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