First word

Today marked a very special milestone.... You said your first word. And it wasn't momma it was pa'pa. Clear as daylight. You keep saying it over and over again and it makes my heart melt. I love you so much baby! Hope you say momma soon ;-) no pressure though

Happy half birthday baby G!!!!

Dearest Baby G,

Today marks your half birthday! 6 months! Wow! Where did time go? It feels like just yesterday you were just a tiny little bean inside my tummy. You've reached so many milestones thus far and I've had a front row seat :-) From smiling to laughing out loud to rolling over to sitting up. Your new thing now is throwing yourself at me when you see me get home from work! That's my favorite! Makes me feel like you've missed me just as much as I've missed you all day.

I really can't believe how fast time has gone by. I wish it would slow down so I could enjoy and savor every single minute of you being this small! I love you more than words could ever say! I know I say this all the time but I really do! Always remember that baby cakes! Momma loves you more than anything and anyone in the world! I wish you many many many more half birthdays and full birthdays to come.

Love always,
Mami

Look how much you've changed! is it possible for you to get even more beautiful?

Your face of excitement!

Happy Half Birthday Beautiful!

your smile just melts my heart!

too fast for the camera!

words fail me.....

My dearest Baby G, yesterday your momma had a rough night. One of my friends passed away. i still can't believe it. she was young and so full of life. The most genuine person i've ever met!  I had just seen her a day before. I hugged her. I asked her how she was and she said she was good. she asked me about you and before i left she looked at me and gave me the most peaceful smile i've ever seen on her. i keep seeing her face when i close my eyes. i keep seeing that smile and all i can think (as weird as it sounds) is that she was ready to go. Her smile was different than any other day. i cried myself to sleep and i woke up with tears in my eyes. I cried driving to work and i've been crying on a off for the past few hours. it seems unreal.Want to know something. Yesterday after i found out, i went to my room and I cried while your dad stayed with you in the living room. i could hear you and your baby talk. i could hear your laugh. when I came outside your dad went over to me and had you in his arms. And while i was crying you reached out and touched my face and the tears running down my cheeks with your little hand. And amidst the sadness i felt you managed to make me smile. thank you! Momma loves you with ALL her heart!

R.I.P. Damarita.... this isn't goodbye but rather see you later.

Freaking out!

If there's one thing that freaks me out MORE than anything in the world is calling someone numerous times and them not answering or calling me back! I always think the worst! Today I had my 1st freak out with you baby g. Called and called your gma at least 10 times in 3 hours. I tried calling her house, her cell phone. Tried calling from different phones thinking maybe my phone wasn't working and nothing. You know that feeling you get when you want to hold in your tears so hard but you're about to loose it? That's how I felt. Finally I called your dad and he tracked her down. Turns out her phone wasn't working. I was just about to call in an amber alert. Horrible feeling! Can't even think straight right now :-(